"Should I give up?
Or should I just keep chasing pavements,
Even if it leads nowhere?
Would it be a waste, even if I knew my place?
Should I leave you there?"
Adele - Chasing Pavements
*Scream!* I am so frustrated! I am usually so decisive and level headed, so why should this time be any different?
(For the sake of personal privacy, the message will be there, but the details vague)
The Problem: I have two good Things. The first of the good Things I have been working on for nearly a year now, and am making progress on, but it is not nearly as far a long or as productive as I had hoped. Then, out of nowhere, comes a second Thing. Now, this new Thing began progressing on its own without my prompting and is much more like me, but is still a bit too new to be a safe choice.
Both of these Things care about me a lot and I care about them both, too (with minor fluctuations in preference). I figure that I should just step back and see what happens, go on normally and not let it mess with me. I am a firm believer in Karma and trust the universe to take a few moments of its time to sort out this petty issue. I'm darn sure that I have earned it with all of what I put up with.
But what do you guys think? Should I pick Thing 1 or Thing 2?
Another friend has a problem much like my own. Hers is simpler, but no easier, if that makes any sense. She recently broke up with her boyfriend for the second time in the past two school years. Aside from maybe 40% of their time being honeymoon phase, all they do is get sad and jealous and bicker about small things. They are broken up, she is losing weight from not eating and are still going to Prom together for some reason (where we all know they will probably get back together). They say that they are in love, but the relationship is not healthy. I am pretty good friends with the both of them and have heard both sides of the story, along with other details from people closer in the matter and can honestly say that I am unbiased. I just want them to be happy no matter if they get back together or not.
On a much lighter side, I am president of the local public library's Teen Advisory Board (not as nerdy as it sounds! =P) and we got to make a movie yesterday for a contest. The guidelines say that we have three minutes to show why we need libraries. I and my partner in crime Colton are total zombie nuts and somehow talked the others into making it a zombie apocalypse where the survivors use self-defense and zombie-survival books to get away. Needless to say, Colton and I jumped at the chance to be zombified.
(Here we are getting our zombie make-up done.)
Zombie Lovers For Life!
Oh, and this song was running through my head the entire time that we shot.
Have A Rainy Day! <3